oh man.
I don't know what happened to me.
I wish I could say that I was marooned on a deserted island near Hawaii...that John and I decided to paddle out into the Pacific and were captured by happy pirates....but no. Didn't happen.
Instead, I just got. really. really. really. overwhelmingly. busy.
I had a bittersweet summer. Sweet, because the time we spent away was amazingly refreshing and put new perspective on life and the future. Bitter because we had to come home and back to reality.
As someone who thrives on change and innovation, it's hard to be stuck in a rut, and to be stuck in a big rut for 4 years is beyond difficult. There are so many changes I want to make, that I am desperate to make, but I don't have control over these situations that need fixing...so rut, rut, rut.
All of this feeling "stuck" and "busy" and "overwhelmed" and "trapped" does not make for very happy or pleasant blog chats- so I stayed far away for as long as I could.
I know YOU, friends and blog readers, understand.
It hasn't been all bad, not by any means...it's just 1 step forward, 2 steps back. For example, last week: I made the KI Memories Design Team- Something that I have wanted FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!! I love KI!!! Major KI Fan!!! I was jumping up and down excited!!!!!....and then we got a phone call rushing us off to Silverdale because FIL was in the Hospital. Obviously we wanted to be near our family, but the trip was right in the middle one of the busiest months of work I've had all year, and returning home left me multiple days behind a fast approaching deadline, and even farther behind on the projects I was already behind on. And then we got some additional bad news...and well...it's just been like that. 1 step forward, 2 steps back.
Enough is enough. I don't want to deal with it anymore, so I am going to pretend that life isn't a big shitpile right now, and dive back into "business as usual" and focus on the things that DO make me happy and the things I CAN control. And maybe, just maybe, things will get better. I mean, hey, at least I still have my crafts. They are a good thing.
So, now that I have broken my month long silence, I think it's time to say... let's get on with the show!!